the perfectly unperfect world of mine

Wordless Wednesday

2012-01-11T21:01:00.001+08:00

merry xmas

2011-12-25T19:05:00.004+08:00

nowadays there's a lot of people posting videos about proposal. sweet! Somehow, I envy those girls. Lucky betol!

but I don't think I am ready yet. and it's scary when people start asking you when is your turn. it's a damn scary question. sometimes I'll tell them "10 years gik". Soalan ya nang soalan standard la once you've graduated & start kerja.

dah abs blaja ppl will ask bila mok kerja. dah kerja ppl will ask bila mok kawen. kakya mun dh kawen ppl will ask bila mok ada anak. mun dh ada anak sorang ppl will ask bila nya mok ada adik? it goes on and on and on and on.. cgek jak org x nanyak, bila kita mok knak tunggah oleh orang atas.

I always tell myself, just go with the flow. I have no target mcm umo sekian sekian mok kawen. umo sekian sekian mok ada anak. hm.. mun ada jodoh, kawen juak ujong ujong. sik ke siney bah. mun dh sikda jodoh, gne nk molah nak? dh d tentu oleh org atas kedak ya.

hm apa d kerepak ku tok?

anyway, but I want to have a wedding. take note, wedding not marriage ok. nak plh planning for the wedding pasuma p nang sik mungkin la ada wedding without marriage nak? sot mena.

I need to prepare myself to become someone's wife and to be a mother in the future, insyaAllah. marriage is a big step. the idea of bertunang pun scary. (aku tok ada masalah kah ngan commitment smpy rasa takut ndah?)

dah lah kin panjang kin banyak ku kerepak ku.

till then

xoxo

p.s. mudahan juak ada jodoh, panjang umur sempat la merasa jadi isteri org nak? :) amin

p.p.s. suka cmne dean propose to vivy and maria's engagement's ceremony adalah sangat sweet!

p.p.p.s and oh, merry xmas friends!

after 2 months

2011-12-22T22:20:00.006+08:00

for sure my blog is collecting

dust.

it's been TWO FREAKING MONTHS since my last post.

oh, hye everyone! (as if there's someone's reading my blog. -_-")

how's life?

Life is not that great but it's not that bad too. I'm living it as it is.

2011 will end soon and I'll probably write a 2011 re-cap.

oh crap! I have not write anything about the graduation.

so yeah, I'll talk about it in this post.

the convocation ceremony was held on 25th September 2011 (Aurel's Birthday)

it was awesome and I wish I could re-live that moment once again.

hehe..

and the rest, I'll let the pictures speak.

thank you :) <3

wordless wednesday

2011-10-19T10:23:00.000+08:00

personality test

2011-10-14T16:13:00.003+08:00

I found a quiz that will tell you your personality from a friend's blog.

and my result is;

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

What's on your mind?

You think money and love are equally important. You have an interest in many things in life, and work hard to ensure that you maintain a healthy balance between work, play and love. However, you tend to be unable to decide on what you really want to do with your life. You wouldn't dream of leaving your loved one for one or two million dollars, but you would have to reconsider if the offer rose to 100 million dollars.

Your Working Style

You have a great deal of warmth, but may not show it until you know a person well. You keep your warm side inside, like a fur-lined coat. When you are care, you care deeply, but are more likely to show your feeling by deeds rather than words. You are very faithful to duties and obligations related to things or people you care about.

You take a very personal approach to life, judging everything by your inner ideals and personal values. You stick to your values with passionate conviction, but can be influenced by someone you care deeply about. Although your inner loyalties and ideals govern your lives, you find these hard to talk about. Your deepest feelings are seldom expressed; your inner tenderness is masked by quiet reserve.

In everyday activities you are tolerant, open-mind, flexible, and adaptable. If one of your inner loyalties is threatened, though, you will not give and inch. You usually enjoy the present moment, and do not like to spoil it by rushing to get thing done. You have little wish to impress or dominate. The people you prize the most are those who take the time to understand your values and the goals you are working toward.

You are interested mainly in the realities brought to you by your senses, both inner and outer. You are apt to enjoy fields where taste, discrimination, and a sense of beauty and proportion are important. You have a special love of nature and a sympathy with animals. You often excel in craftsmanship and the work of your hands is usually more eloquent than words.

You are twice as good when working at a job that you believe in, since your feeling adds energy to your efforts. You see the needs of the moment and try to meet them. You want your work to contribute to something that matters to you-- human understanding, happiness, or health. You want to have a purpose beyond your paycheck, no matter how big the check. You are perfectionists whenever you deeply care about something, and are particularly suited for work that requires both devotion and a large measure of adaptability.

The problem for you is that you may feel such a contrast between your inner ideals and your actual accomplishments that you may burden yourself with a sense of inadequacy. This can be true even when you are being as effective as others. You take for granted anything you do well and are the most modest of all the types, tending to underrate and understate yourself.

It is important for you to find practical ways to express your ideals; otherwise you will keep dreaming of the impossible and accomplish very little. If you find no actions to express your ideal, you can become too sensitive and vulnerable, with dwindling confidence in life and in yourself. Actually, you have much to give and need only to find the spot where you are needed.
Hot or Not? (for girls)

Part 1] Self Confidence: 60% -> You doubt yourself in some situations.
[Part 2] Sensory Perceptions: 56% -> Somewhat sensitive to stimulation around you.
[Part 3] Body Language: 57% -> Quite good at utilizing on occasions.
[Part 4] Conversational Skills: 87% -> A real talent!
[Part 5] Empathy For Others: 67% -> Occasionally empathizes with others.

You are a typical girl, like the majority.

The Clothes You Wear

What others see from your style
Although to the untrained eye you may seem like a plain dresser who avoids trends, you actually wear carefully designed accessories and clothes that emphasize your uniqueness. You value your freedom and have an artistic mind. You are neither aggressive nor timid, but you believe in yourself.

What your nightclothes reveal
You are friendly and always in good mood. You are candid and helpful, and can be sexy at times too.

What others see from your ties
You are a caring people. You are romantic, witty, and easygoing. You compromise rather than confront, and love nature.

What others see from your belts
You are a lonely and demanding person. You are hardworking as well as intelligent, and can be passionate when in love.

What others see from your shoes
You like to be the center of attention. You like to look good at all times and probably never leave the house without makeup on. Although you may be intelligent, you're also insecure about your looks. You care about others, and will always listen to what they have to say.

What others see from your earrings
You are probably a free spirit at heart with artistic talent. You are absolutely unique and are always coming up with lots of great ideas. Being happy is your most important goal.

The last analysis
You are probably a clever and adventurous person. You love to learn new things, and enjoy socializing with friends. Although you enjoy your freedom, you cherish peacefulness and like to spend time alone with your thoughts.
Somehow, I found it 85% true.

Try it.
:)

till then,
xoxo

2011-10-10T15:56:00.002+08:00

I wonder..

...when am I going to be sure about what I really want in my life

as time goes by

2011-10-03T19:58:00.007+08:00

Salam everyone!

I know that it's been a while since I make a proper update here. I am not that busy tho, I think I am just plainly lazy. eh nope, I've made some attempt to write a post, a number of times actually and it all end up in the draft.

There's actually a lot of things I want to share here. So, give me some time and I'll update as much as I can okay? :)

1. I am currently not unemployed any more. Started working on 16th August, on the same day I received my offer letter for masters from UTM via e-mail. Clearly, I chose to work. Don't ask me if I love my job or not, because I haven't find the reason to love it, yet. Except for the fact that I make my own money now. (hoi hoi x bersyukur btol la, cpt bersyukur SEKARANG!)

2. Shawwal is already over a few days ago. I didn't do much visiting this year as I am working on the fourth day of raya (I KNOW IT SUCKS RIGHT?). I hope I can still have a chance to meet Shawwal next year. I miss Shawwal and Ramadhan :'(

i took some pics from fb. heeee ^^

3. Kak Intan's Wedding. Kak Intan is Farah's sister and Farah is one of my besties. I am one of the flower-girls along with my besties. :) it was awesome!

pics from shidot's camera!

4. The graduation day! I'll make a post just for this! :'D

Overall, my life has change. I have never imagine that this is how my life would be at the age of 22. I don't have a plan for my future. I don't really make plan. I am not good in keeping it so I just go with the flow. I know that I should have a goal and yup, I am not sure what I want in my life.

I graduated and I started my career without any goals or plan. Sounds so wrong right? So now I guess that my goal is to have a goal in life. That would be a good start.

Since I start working, I've asked myself a few times, is this what you really want? Do you want this kind of life for the rest of your life? Or at least for another few decades of your life? Do you enjoy doing this?

I am not sure what's life has to offer me in the future and once again, I'll go with the flow.

I think that's all for now. and I promise that I'll make a post for my graduation. It's the best time in my life.

till then,

xoxo

p.s. I miss uni :(

2011-09-18T20:39:00.002+08:00

hey!

Rindu nk tulis blog. Seriously.

I am not that busy smpey nang sikda masa nk blog.

I did try to write a post but it seems like I'm losing it :(

I'll definitely write some update soon, insyaAllah.

2011-09-02T18:58:00.001+08:00

its not too late for me to wish all Muslims

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN

for those in Kuching, dtg la ke rumah

raya insyaAllah sebulan

hehe

made by Malaysians - matlutfi90

2011-08-27T17:17:00.006+08:00

Im a Malay & Islam is my religion.

my race teaches me to respect others, no matter what's their race or religion.

I am proud to be a Malaysian.

p.s. I am not confident enough to make a video *~~I'm a veeeerrrrryyyyyy shy person~~* that's why I made this post.

22 August

2011-08-22T15:27:00.001+08:00

today, 22 August 2011

I'm in my office

things do change

life must go on

YongSeo Couple

2011-08-21T06:40:00.000+08:00

the reunion

rindu :'(

not a Wordless Wednesday

2011-08-10T01:42:00.002+08:00

I'm in love with IAN SOMERHALDER! Like seriously, deeply in LOVE. Who doesn't?? duhhh.

p.s. Sorry boyfriend :P

2011-08-08T15:26:00.000+08:00

suddenly kan.....

I AM EXCITED FOR RAYA!

haihh..

2nd week of Ramadhan

2011-08-08T12:46:00.002+08:00

saya cuak mahu pergi medical check up esk

adeh

bye

Wordless Wednesday

2011-08-03T23:43:00.000+08:00

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Ramadhan

2011-07-31T18:18:00.001+08:00

Please forgive me for all my wrongdoings everyone. Have a blessed Ramadhan.

Semoga mendapat keberkatan.

it is so true

2011-07-31T08:46:00.001+08:00

Guys, sometimes a girl just wants you to do cute things for her. She never says it, but she secretly hopes that you’re the kind of guy that likes to show the effort in a relationship. Bring her flowers, as cliche as they may be. She’ll still appreciate them (and her mom will love you), and you’ll just be that much more special in her eyes. If she’s allergic to flowers, bring her some carrots. She’ll love you that much more because you care about her eyesight, am I right? (; But seriously, bake her cupcakes, get down on one knee.. and tie her shoe. Blindfold her and take her to the mountains above the city, but bring extra blankets. Look, a girl just wants to feel special. No matter how cliche or small you do it, she’ll appreciate the effort, I promise.

- Tumblr

September!

2011-07-29T00:57:00.002+08:00

90210 Season 4 - September 13

Vampire Diaries Season 3 - September 15

How I Met Your Mother Season 7 - September 19

Glee Season 3 - September 20

Grey's Anatomy Season 8 - September 22

Gossip Girl Season 5 - September 25

can't wait!! rinduu lah dengan those TV Series!

2 months to go :D

love

2011-07-28T12:24:00.000+08:00

“You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.”

- Bob Marley

Wordless Wednesday

2011-07-27T17:08:00.001+08:00

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2011-07-12T01:01:00.001+08:00

I'm sick of reading about bersih on fb. urgh!

stop it lah weyh.

2011-07-11T02:14:00.002+08:00

when I have a lot of free time, I tend to think a lot about my life, reminiscing about the good old days, thinking about the future, thinking about the 'what if'(s), about the road not taken etc.

all this thinking sometimes make me feeling down about myself. but it lights me up too, at some other time.

and sometimes, I think that I could relate my life with the songs I listen to.

it's creepy, sometimes. haha!

I am talking crap now.

off to dreamland

xoxo

bersih 2.0

2011-07-09T23:41:00.003+08:00

FYI, I don't take sides.

BUT I do think that it's useless. why?

Because it seems like it doesn't make any good. to anyone. Clearly there's more disadvantages than the advantages, no?

we should unite as a nation but we are going against each other. it ruins people's business. the road are closed. traffic jam. it gives bad impression to the tourist. people got hurt, got arrested. etc. etc. tell me, what's good about that?

let's think about it people.

monotonous

2011-07-08T01:39:00.002+08:00

I am seriously living a damn ~~fakking~~ monotonous life, that explains the lack of updates from me.

It is not that monotonous last weekend & a few days this week though. Spent my weekend with my girls. Farah's roomate datang bercuti di Kuching. And we all jadi her 'tourist guide' walaupun we all pun jadi tourist sometimes -_-". Went to Sarawak Cultural Village and that was my third visit in three months! We had fun over the weekend.

We planned for a weekend gateway sometime this month and I am already excited. I've missed them so much. I think being around them makes me happy :D hopefully plan menjadi lah ye! I am so looking forward for it!

Well, that's pretty much for a monotonous life. hahah!

till then,

xoxo

aimsweb.utm.my

2011-06-27T22:16:00.003+08:00

today is the day! :) I am now officially graduated from UTM! :')

but unfortunately, I felt nothing. I was "numb". Of course I am thankful. It was just, I can't really describe it because I didn't feel anything. *sigh

I didn't graduate with the first class honour but Alhamdulillah I manage to graduate with the second class upper. my result tak gempak but I am satisfied or at least I'll try to convince myself to be satisfied. :)

Can't wait for the graduation ceremony! I miss my friends and I kinda miss UTM.

till then,

xoxo

colour of my life

2011-06-21T01:31:00.003+08:00

I've edited the template. Not so much different though.

I am bored so I searched for blogger template but unfortunately, the ready-made template, the fancy ones, doesn't really suit me. It doesn't feel right.

oh, on a random note, Alex O'Loughlin adalah sangat handsome okayyy!

Haha! It's pointless, yes. But don't you think that he is very handsome? oh god!

I wanna go to sleep and dream about him tonight.

till then,

xoxo

expectations

2011-06-17T20:02:00.003+08:00

no expectations, no disappointments. true right?

whenever we start to expect something, and it doesn't turn out to be like what we expected, we will be disappointed. it's like the higher your expectation is, the bigger chance of you to be disappointed or the higher your hopes are, it's gonna be more painful if you fall.

I tend to have a very high expectations, in almost everything in my life. that's why when it doesn't turns out like what I've expected, it hurts, so much till I sometimes couldn't stand it. There might be a phase where I'll be hating myself for what I've done. For what I could not achieve.

and this is a problem for me. but on the other hand, it's good to put a high expectation. it could be an inspiration for us to be better, to do better in everything we do.

now it turns out that expectation could be a good and also a bad thing. and I am so screwed. There's no point of writing this post actually.

Since I have done with the re-run of Grey's Anatomy from season 1 till season 7, now it's time for Gossip Girls' re-run! Haha! I know, my life is boring and it's pathetic! I totally have nothing to do at home and I am now done with season 2. And while watching the 2nd season, episode 19, I came across with this;

Nate: Do you remember when you used to make us watch your favorite movies over and over again? Like Tiffany's, Holiday. You used to drive me nuts. I finaly asked you why you like watch movies you've already seen? Remember what you said?
Blair: I like knowing how things are gonna turn out.
Nate: Exactly.

I totally can relate with the situation! I mean, why do I love to watch the series or movies I've watch over and over again? I got the same reason and also because it feels so good to watch it all over again as it could reminds me of my good old days. Don't ask me how could watching a tv series or movies over and over again could bring me back such memories because I seriously don't know. HAHA!

as usual, my post will become a rojak! I'm writing about so many things in one post and if I do that for my english/bahasa melayu exam I could fail those exams! shoooooooooot! Iamsucksinwriting! *sigh, I have no talent in anything -_-"

till then,

you know you love me

XOXO

change

2011-06-12T11:46:00.002+08:00

people change. feelings change.

it doesn't mean that the love once shared wasn't true and real.

it simply just means that sometimes when people grow, they grow apart.

Make You Feel My Love

2011-06-10T12:10:00.003+08:00

Adele

Make You Feel My Love

When the rain

Is blowing in your face

And the whole world

Is on your case

I could offer you

A warm embrace

To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows

And the stars appear

And there is no one there

To dry your tears

I could hold you

For a million years

To make you feel my love

I know you

Haven't made

Your mind up yet

But I would never

Do you wrong

I've known it

From the moment

That we met

No doubt in my mind

Where you belong

I'd go hungry

I'd go black and blue

I'd go crawling

Down the avenue

No, there's nothing

That I wouldn't do

To make you feel my love

The storms are raging

On the rolling sea

And on the highway of regret

Though winds of change

Are throwing wild and free

You ain't seen nothing

Like me yet

I could make you happy

Make your dreams come true

Nothing that I wouldn't do

Go to the ends

Of the Earth for you

To make you feel my love

damn true

2011-06-09T01:22:00.000+08:00

2011-06-07T02:22:00.002+08:00

lekak mukak folder2 gamba lmk.

adoh, siyes pereyyyyy

hahaha

banyak nk d tetak

and at the same time,

I'm reminiscing about the good old days.

reminds me a lot about my past

the bitter sweet of it

I miss those days

I really do :(

andddddddddd

aku kurus dowhhh dolok

nang 2329037289738279827 kali lebih kurus

nakpaaaaa d mkn ku smpy jd kdak tok

siyesss ehh

aih udah eh

sikda guna juak mun ngerepak jak p sikda molah apa2 nak?

haha!

tapi gamba lamak2 ya nang perey habis habisan ah

nak upload tp klak la.. huhu

adios amigos!

2011-06-06T14:59:00.003+08:00

it happens to me everyday, EVERYDAY like seriously.

it might happens at night or even as soon as I wake up in the morning.

I've been thinking a lot.

about the future, and the past too.

after I'm done with all the thinking.

I'll feel bad about me.

I'll hate myself

I'll hate people around me

I'll hate my life

and I'll pit myself in a mood.

no kidding, it happens to me everyday since I don't know when

I am depressed

I can't do what I want to do in my life

and I have no one to blame but me

2011-06-04T22:46:00.001+08:00

will I able to do that?

2011-06-01T18:45:00.000+08:00

Happy 5.3333 years Sayang!

ilysm

unemployed

2011-06-01T18:09:00.003+08:00

looking at this picture makes me feels like I need a vacation. I just want to go to the beach. Take pictures. Just having fun, a lot of fun.

I am bored. I am considering to get myself a 'summer job' but I bet I am too lazy for that.

on the other hand, I might just lovin' my life as it is. No commitment, routine, deadlines, nothing. But I need to work. I need to earn money because I need money to live my life.

for now, I am enjoying myself with the grey's anatomy re-run. hang out with my friends once in a while. go out for a date with my boyfriend.

till then,

xoxo

2011-05-30T21:57:00.000+08:00

"Find something you love to do, and you'll never work a day in your life" - Harvey Mac

I love to travel.

and I need a job.

2011-05-29T20:05:00.001+08:00

the journey to the end

2011-05-27T10:44:00.009+08:00

It was my final semester in UTM. I got mixed feelings about it. I am happy but also sad at the same time. We craved a lot of memories during our final semester and since I have a lot of free time now, I am gonna share bits of the memories here.

Steamboat with classmates

International Kite Festival

Borneo Night

GRADS'11

Penang Trip

Steamboat with MASSA people

Sutra'11

Seoul Garden

FABulous Night'11

PED's presentation

CESMM's Presentation

Balai Cerapan

BBQ with classmates

Jilid PSM

Our babies ;)

Last Paper :)

External Examiner Meeting

we've been together as a class for 3 years and 2 years for some people. We've gone trough a lot of things. and now it is a bittersweet memories for all of us.

Now we are taking different path and as for me, the future is still blur. I applied for master and did some job hunting as well. I'll just go with the flow and see where it taking me to.

wish me luck for my new life aite?

and for my SBQ 08/11 friends, we may be apart but you guys will be my friends forever. I feel very lucky to know you guys. Each and everyone of you have a special place in my heart. One day we will meet again and at that moment, we will reminisce the time we had. and I am truly sorry if I ever hurt any one of you.

thanks for the memories :)

2011-05-24T16:20:00.001+08:00

I need to be strong

:'(

2011-05-21T00:57:00.002+08:00

He's just a little boy

Only 1 month old

Be strong Aqsa

Get well soon ok?

Aqsa is a strong boy

we all know what

Ya Allah, sembuhkanlah Aqsa Aushaf

11.5.11

2011-05-11T18:50:00.003+08:00

I am done with final exam for my FINAL SEMESTER

hopefully everything is going to be juuuusssst fine ;)

I'm done with my degree (if everything goes well, insyaAllah) but now I have no exact plan about my future

the most important thing I have to do now is to pack my stuff

3 years, and I don't think packing will be easy

4 days till Kuching y'all! :)

Anna Nalick- "Breath (2AM)"

2011-05-08T01:19:00.001+08:00

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,

"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,

I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season"

Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes

Like they have any right at all to criticize,

Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable

And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table

No one can find the rewind button, girl.

So cradle your head in your hands

And breathe... Just breathe,

Oh breathe, just breathe

May he turn 21 on the base at Fort Bliss

"Just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist,

"Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year."

Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,

But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,

Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,

And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.

No one can find the rewind button, boys,

So cradle your head in your hands,

And breathe... Just breathe,

Oh breathe, just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel,

You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out

And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again

If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song

If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,

Threatening the life it belongs to

And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd

Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud

And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,

And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table

No one can find the rewind button now

Sing it if you understand.

And breathe, just breathe

Woah breathe, just breathe,

Oh breathe, just breathe,

Oh breathe, just breathe.

I got the lyrics from here.

I am freaking out! Seriously :( I don't think that I am ready yet but I have no choice. I am afraid. I don't know what to do. I want to turn back the time but I know for sure I couldn't. Now I need to breathe, just breathe and hope that everything going to be just fine.

so breathe, just breathe.

note to self; be strong, you can do make it!

countdown

2011-04-28T20:18:00.002+08:00

hopefully everything gonna be just fine.

2011-04-26T15:02:00.002+08:00

who wants a blackberry?

sila angkat tangan!

who wants an ipad?

sila angkat tangan!

who wants an ipod touch?

sila angkat tangan!!!

huhu! I want all!

if you want all those things I mentioned above, join the churp churp race, heree!!!

come on! come on! come on! :D

2011-04-25T23:27:00.002+08:00

my first final exam will starts in less than 12 hours.

wish me luck kawan kawan

and

GOOD LUCK to kawan kawan yg tegah/akan ber-final exam :)

"may Allah ease everything"

hello study week

2011-04-17T22:33:00.003+08:00

last week was the last week of academic week

means that, no more class for this semester,

and probably no more class for ever

the study week has come but unfortunately I have 2 presentations this week

PED and of course PSM

can't really tell what I feel right now

mixed feeling

and everyone talks about the future

what's my plan?

I HAVE NO PLAN dude

I can't decide what should I do after uni ends

it's a very hard decision, really

I decided to decide everything after finals

good enough eh?

601th

2011-04-15T21:26:00.000+08:00

it's the last day of school.

2011-04-11T02:07:00.000+08:00

2011-04-04T19:12:00.002+08:00

I am craving for;

butter chicken rice

laksa sarawak

mee jawa

roti moon

pisang goreng cheese

baked cheese rice

dim sum

lemon chicken rice

burger swinburne

spaghetti bolognese

fettuccine carbonara

singapore chicken rice

butter prawn

jagung longan

rojak sotong

rojak buah

gila lah aku pun keinginan! tapi paling ingin mok butter chicken.. cne mok oleh ctok? :'(

hmm.. homesick sebenarnya ehh. aish.. pls fast forward to may. Hmmphhh..

2011-04-03T09:41:00.001+08:00

masa depan yang belum pasti

Week 13

2011-03-28T16:16:00.002+08:00

time flies really fast right? I still remember the beginning of semester 6 and now, only 2 weeks left before we start our 'study week'.

as usual, end of semester gonna be tough. submission of assignments and in my case, submission of my thesis.

next week I have 2 assignments to be submitted. the submission for my thesis is also next week.

and the following week, there are going to be presentations, viva.

Ya Allah, give me some strength to get everything done on time!

wish me luck beautiful people.

xoxo

2011-03-25T18:06:00.002+08:00

hidup sy semakin bosan

kelas-assignment-psm-makan-tdo-bb-laptop

hmm.. perhaps, sy memerlukan sesuatu yang baru untuk mewarnai hidup sy

dan sy sedang di dalam dilemma sekarang

dpt tawaran yang baik tapi terlalu banyak yang harus di-consider

sy mungkin akan kecewakan awak

maaf

antap aku sot mun dh nulis gtok.

chow!

SPM

2011-03-23T01:14:00.004+08:00

I didn't do well in SPM, I screwed up.

I went to matric and I didn't do well either. *sigh

luckily, I got a place here in UTM, I am very thankful and that was the chance for me to start over.

Alhamdulillah

so people, SPM is not the end of the world.

no matter what, just don't give up

keep going!

GOOD LUCK for your SPM results, adek adek :)

p.s. SPM is a bitter memories for me. I do regret but hey, damage has been done. there's nothing else I can do that could change it. all I can do is keep going and make a better future. and I take this as a self-reminder. sometimes I tend to do the same mistake, again. I need to focus. I need to get things turn out right this time.

2011-03-22T15:07:00.003+08:00

Hamizah - Riang, gembira, yang bijaksana

source

*edited

and yeah, I found here, maksud nama sy juga ialah 'yang kuat'. hahah! sy x tipu lah yanie! :)

2011-03-21T03:10:00.002+08:00

I have a few events that I really want to share here but it seems like I don't really have time to do so.

till then,

xoxo

2011-03-11T02:59:00.003+08:00

All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them. - Walt Disney

I have a lot of dreams. It just that there's a lot to sacrifice in order for me to achieve my dreams. I am not sure am I strong enough to do the sacrifice.

I bet that after all, we can't have it all.

2011-03-10T01:01:00.002+08:00

let's pray that I can make it.

focus!!

hang on there dear self.

it will be over, soon, insyaAllah

Ya Allah, give me the strength.

talent

2011-03-06T02:40:00.005+08:00

I know that I have no talent at all. I envy those people who are talented. I don't care what are the talent you have. may it be to play music instrument (goshhh! I've always want to learn how to play a piano), draw, write, or just simply being creative (I do think it's a talent. hehe..)

I think talent is not just something that you can learn how to. it comes naturally. well, they still have to learn but still, they need that some kind 'natural talent'. know 'how-to' doesn't make you good at it!

I am not even close to creative. I can't play any music instrument. I don't know to play any sport. I can't even draw a proper house. I can't write a good article. oh, this one just remind me about my TECS. well, TECS is just like the MUET for UTM students. I don't even understand why do they want us to take this exams. It's just a waste of time and money. pfft! ruining my weekend je! oh, back to the topic. I can't even be creative. well, you know, some people don't really have to put so much effort on decorating something to make it look nice but at the end, they will make it look beautiful. I envy those people, seriously!

I also envy people who could write a very nice article or maybe just a very nice essay would impress me. I on the other hand could never write a flawless essay. my vocabulary is limited, my grammar sucks and at this point, I really don't understand why on earth I own a blog? HAHA! may it be an essay in English or even in Malay, I can't write a proper one. I feel so useless right now. I am so frustrated. Sigh..

I am feeling so down right now. I can't even colour a drawing.. well, I can but it won't turn out to be nice. You probably think that a 5 years old was the one who coloured it. Damn, why am I feeling like this??

oh, maybe I do have a talent, or two. I am good at spending my money and the second one, I am a food lover. that's good enough right? *ooh, in YOUR dream!*

uh, I should go to bed now.

good night people.

xoxo

birthstone

2011-03-04T16:39:00.003+08:00

Just found out that the birthstone for April babies are diamond!

and I think that explains a lot of things. LOL.

jom!

2011-03-03T04:33:00.003+08:00

mahu ber GOP sekali lagi

jom!

I ~~want~~ need a vacation

life is just not like what I want it to be

2011-03-03T01:29:00.000+08:00

I'm stuck in between.

*sigh

WEEK 8

2011-02-21T03:23:00.003+08:00

it's test week for us SBQs and SBCs.

GOOD LUCK GUYS!

this would be the last test week for us (insyaAllah).

I hope we will make it! :)

but unfortunately, we have to vote for the MPM thinggy tomorrow. *sigh

I went to the International Kite Festival last weekend! I ~~will~~ might post something about it after I'm done with tests.

p.s I typed 'home' instead of 'hope' earlier. Guess that I miss home..

2011-02-18T15:10:00.001+08:00

too much hatred around here

I actually feel like I can't take it anymore.

why so gloomy?

2011-02-15T17:45:00.002+08:00

it's been a while since I wrote something here. and I think I spent so little time on tumblr nowadays and facebook bores me. (so not me right?)

it's already week 7, the mid-semester test is coming soon. the assignments are piling up. the submission of thesis is just around the corner. I am stressed. but it doesn't make me any good.

I've been spending so many time watching those TV Series (that explains why I am not spending so much time on the internet). gossip girl, 90210, grey's anatomy, the vampire diaries, how i met your mother, glee and some korean series keep me busy busy. I even watch the Junior MasterChef Australia! *sigh

I should really need something to distract me from those distractions. I NEED TO FOCUS. 3 months won't be thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaattttttttt long right?

I really need a motivation right now.

anyway, Salam Maulidur Rasul everyone!

2011-02-02T23:10:00.002+08:00

I called you 'best friend' once. That means even if we don't talk for a long period of time, or even if we have a horrible fight. I'll always be your best friend, you can come to me whenever you want, and I hope it's the same for me. -Tumblr-

I may not be the good friend when it comes to keeping in touch.

I can't really give advice but I am here to lend my ears.

I would like to lend my shoulders whenever you need one.

I will always be there whenever you need a warm hugs.

I may never said to you that I love you but deep inside my heart, I do love all of my best friends, my friends.

friends forever!! :D

f i f t h

2011-02-01T23:24:00.003+08:00

Happy 5th Anniversary Sayang!

thanks for the wonderful years

ilysm

2011-01-31T02:31:00.000+08:00

set your limit, set your goal and make it right.

you'll be fine.

2011-01-29T16:07:00.004+08:00

I think I've spent too much to buy clothes.

I should have not spent that much!

aigoo.

I really think I should at least buy a watch for myself.

*sigh

sesal dahulu pendapatan, sesal kemudian tiada gunanya (btol x tok? haha!)

keinginan yang melampau!

2011-01-29T14:32:00.012+08:00

sy mempunyai keinginan yang agak melampau. =.="

sy nak..

~~jam baru.. hmmph.. tp x jmpe lg yg berkenan di hati.~~

~~nak handphone baru..~~

~~atau~~

hm.. sy nak ipod touch

~~dan ipad juga~~

dan sy pun nak camera baru jgak!!

sy nk sbb terpengaruh dgn wgm! aigoo!

dan mungkin sy nak

grr! terlalu banyak keinginan!

dan yg paling sy nak,

to travel around the world

kalauuuuu lah sy banyak duit kannn?

*sighhh

pic courtesy to mr google and also mr tumblr.

2011-01-15T23:39:00.003+08:00

I do have new year resolutions actually..

one of the new year's resolutions is to buy an iPad or iPod touch.

so, if I want to make it come true, I HAVE to control my expenses.

and I failed to control my expenses these few days. *sigh

spent a lot of money already :(

but on the other hand, I am satisfied with that I've bought.

lol

I am writing this post so that I'll remember how much I am 'determined' to save money for iPad or iPod touch.

huhu..

till then,

xoxo

6th Semester

2011-01-07T18:39:00.001+08:00

hello final semester and it means that the end has already begin.

I am in week 2 now and so far week 1 has been a slooowwwww week. the timetable for this semester sucks, big time!

I literally have 2 weekends in a week. I have classes on Monday and Tuesday. I AM FREE on Wednesday and Thursday. and on Friday, I have classes until 5 pm. sucks right? I'd prefer to have no class on Friday. I could tolerate with the morning class on Friday but class on 3pm, I can see that I'll daydreaming during that class for the whole semester.

as for this week, I only have classes on Monday AND Friday (the 3pm class ONLY). but I do have an appointment with my SV on Wednesday. Huhu.. Bedebar eh mok jumpa nya! X

oh ya, here's the random note. I and my coursemates (not each and everyone lah) went for a steamboat dinner last weekend. Had fun and the most important thing is, we ate like there's no tomorrow. Tasted the mango ice cream for the first time and it's deliciousssss! too bad that was the last one. tskk

and now I am craving for samosa and some kuih, I miss buying those from baazar ramadhan. :'( sedih plak ble fikir that I won't be in UTM next ramadhan (if everything goes well lahhhh).

that's all the update for me.

I wanna take a short nap before I am off to cafe to buy juadah berbuka. Huhu

till then people,

xoxo

2011-01-05T22:28:00.003+08:00

there were days where you feel that you are the most un-luckiest person in the world

wait, I always feel like that.

not only on those days

wanderlust

2011-01-05T12:18:00.001+08:00

a strong desire or urge to travel and wander

hello 2011!

2011-01-01T01:05:00.002+08:00

"Sure, 2010 wasn't the greatest year for you. There were heartbreaks. There were smiles. Memories were created, some you will never forget. You smiled, you cried. You have grown. You have become smarter. You have learned from your mistakes. You hurt yourself. You cried because of the truth. You laughed. You loved. Whatever you did in 2010, it has already happened. You have learned this year, and make 2011 better than 2010." --- source

let's make the year 2011 better than 2010, insyaAllah.

I'm going to be 22 this year and I feel old already. I have a feeling that there will be A LOT of things that's gonna happen in this year.

hope that it's gonna be a good year. may Allah bless us :)

amin

2010

2010-12-31T02:30:00.002+08:00

I did not make any 2010 resolution so yeah, no need to check either I accomplish it or not. So, let's see what happened in 2010

Weekend gateway, Kota Tinggi!! Had fun and also sunburn!

Farewell Farah and Dani.

New haircut :)

New phone, broadband

2 months internship in Naim Holdings

Went to Shenzhen, China

Cry. Laugh. Smile. Make friends. Took photos. Emotionally breakdown. Happy. Sad. Frustrated. etc.

the most important thing is I get to know myself better. :)

insyaAllah, 2011 will be a much better year.

new year resolution? to become a better person.

thank you 2010 for all the memories.

xoxo

2010-12-27T11:10:00.002+08:00

"She's a perfectionist. She would not take on anything that she doesn't feel that she will be good at" Life Unexpected S01E02

Somehow, I think that line describes me well. Except for the perfectionist part. I am so not a perfectionist.

But yes, I don't like to do things that I think I won't be good at. I guess I just doesn't want the bad outcome. I want to do well in everything, so when I think I can't, that makes me don't wanna do it.

That's why I have no interest to do anything about my PSM because I know whatever I do, it won't make it good because it's bad, very bad.

You can say that, just don't give up yet. But hell yeah, I can't help myself but giving up. I just don't want to have a high expectation.

Don't tell me to work harder because I just don't have the heart to do it.

*SIGH

It's just me being me!

2010-12-25T11:25:00.002+08:00

where to go during the CNY hols?

staying at the hostel is a big NO

tix to kuching is damn expensive

what's left is vacation!

hahaha!

but where?

with who?

I know, the semester blom start pun but I already think about the holidays.

ahh.. typical me duhh!

ideas ideas ideas please come to me!

who is your person?

2010-12-24T00:34:00.003+08:00

well, the person I meant here as like the Meredith for Christina and Blair for Serena. you get what I mean right?

we probably have a lots of friends but at some point we need that one person to lend their ears to hear all your problems, your dreams, your worries and whatever you want to tell them lahh. not that you can't tell you other friends but then I think everyone will, somehow, have at least one person that they would never think twice when it comes to spill everything.

as for me, I think I don't have that person. pathetic much? as I look back, I don't usually know who I could turn to whenever I have a problem or a conflict in life. and I don't know since when I become that lonely. ~~damnit!~~

I tried to search for one person and I failed. well, maybe I have one, few years back. but I don't really know what happens and all I know that I've lost that person. maybe it's me :(

anti-social? loner? haihh.. possible kot?

maybe the 'person' who won't judge like Blair is just a character in a TV shows and as a huge fan, it influences me. muahahaha! if it is so, blame those TV shows that makes me want someone like her. but I bet everyone would like to have a person like Blair as their friend. who doesn't kan?

whatever it is, it's just an opinion of mine. huhu.. I am thankful for my awesome friends I have in my life :)

but then, I think you should find your person because we do need someone to turn to. not only during the bad days but also to share the happiness :)

till then,

xoxo

p.s holiday is coming to an end :( and the fact that this is my last holiday before graduating (insyaAllah) makes me sad. next time I'm home, it's gonna be different!

2010-12-21T19:13:00.000+08:00

I am down with fever right now

:'(

sobss!

2010-12-20T20:50:00.002+08:00

hello people!

I have nothing interesting to blog about actually! I've been busy with work last week but now I am unemployed. Stayed at home today (except that I went to Kopi O Corner for lunch and for me it doesn't really count). Bored to the max ya'all!!

Wanted to have a date with mr boyfriend but it's raining heavily and we decided to cancel the plan. :( and that's why am typing this post. it was damn hot during the day and raining heavily during the night. please don't make it happens everyday :(

......ok I have no idea what to type!

that's it for now.

till then,

xoxo

9 Dec 2010

2010-12-10T02:04:00.003+08:00

woke up late.

had brunch.

then took a almost 5 hours nap

oh, so unproductive

I feel like I am alone in this world.

senarai tampal is almost full

pointer go down down down the drain

maybe I should say, serve you right?

sedih T__T

but then

I should be thankful

thank you Allah :)

2010-12-08T00:44:00.002+08:00

there's always a good and bad in everything

the good thing is, I am relieved. selamattt cgek!

the bad thing is, I am disappointed :(

on the other hand, I had fun today :D

nang rajin nak bejalan ehhhh

sehari2 di jeraya arum bulak nya

and

I know that they will always be by my side :')

kawan dunia akhirat tek nakkk?

you know who you are lah kan?

with them in my life, I have no fear of what's gonna happen in the future :)

till then

xoxo

sunday :)

2010-12-05T09:42:00.002+08:00

the holiday mood is on people! ;)

home is always the best! home sweet home kann..

it's gonna be a month holiday and I hope I can use is wisely.

not only for the holiday sake but for my Projek Sakit Mental too. munnn jak lahh!

so far kuching is good. with the food, the people and everything in between

met my besties *only 3 of them though, but it's better than none.

missed them so much and we talked about everything until sakit tekak sorang2. hahaha!

I really miss those moment..

for me they are the people who really understand me and also accept me for who I am :')

they are my non-judging breakfast club members!

I want to go on vacation but unfortunately, it's seems like there's no vacation for us this year :(

andd the best thing about being home is I can sleep whenever I want

hahah! nang kuat tdo aih

nangga boys over flower pun blh tertido -__-"

nak kata nak nganti tido d UTM sik juak

d UTM pun tdo kedak apaa jak

dah nama kuat tdo ehh..

lekak tdo makan..

ish.. nang sik sehat alu eyh!

mr boyf also being nice to me :)

I miss you sayang.. and I know you miss me too!

hehe!

am planning to do some baking (HAHA! mun jadi lah)

and also I want to hit the gym with my cousin n bro (tok pun munnnnnnn jadi lah)

till then people

xoxo

2010-11-29T00:41:00.002+08:00

*Abaikan lirik*

yang dalam kotak merah tu penting

3 days left babeh!

and I'm getting bored with this place

I WANT TO GO HOME

;(

tomorrow is his birthday and I can't be with him

sedih seribuenamratusjutakali sedih!

benci!

PSM awak wat hidup sy merana!!!!

DiGi BlackBerry Torch 9800 – Hot New Features

2010-11-22T12:53:00.008+08:00

WARNING : Sediakan kipas kerana entry ini is about something HOT!

I've been using the Blackberry Curve 8520 since May this year

and yes, I love how this phone complete my life.

Well, there's a thing about gadgets, you can't really get enough! All you know, you'll want more and more and more, trust me with that!!

Since the first time I set my eye on the BlackBerry Torch 9800, I fell in LOVE with this HOT phone! It is the hottest gadget in town!

picture from here

This phone does not only have hot looks but it has HOT features! *I feel hot just by typing this.. hahah!*

Pinch and Zoom. You can use your fingers to pinch a screen for a zoomed out effect and expand two fingers to zoom in.

sangatt hot okayy

5 MP Camera y'all! With flash, 2X digital zoom, continuous auto-focus, image stabilization, multiple picture-taking modes and video recording.

you will never ever ever missed any precious moment. snap snap snap everywhere you go. *ehemm* especially for person like me ^____^v

this phone comes with both touch screen with on-screen keyboard AND QWERTY keypad

it is also complete with GPS, Wi-Fi, 3G and 8GB of memory

wait.. 8GB memory is not enough? the memory is Expandable with support for microSD cards up to 32 GB

hhahh.. save la ap hang nak save!

Entertainment? Let's see..

it supports MPEG4, H.263, H.264, WMV3 for videos
and MP3, AMR-NB, AAC-LC, AAC+, eAAC+, WMA, WMV, Flac, Ogg Vorbis for audio

furthermore, it comes with 3.5mm stereo headset jack and built-in speakerphone

memang memberi satisfaction lahh!

and the hottest news of all

the BlackBerry Torch 9800 has now launched with DiGi

yeayyy!

now you get the HOTTER and SMARTER BlackBerry Torch 9800

isn't that just great??

BUT

in order to be a hot girl in town,

I need to win this phone

pretty please :)

2010-11-21T22:35:00.002+08:00

walaupun kalah ngan Lin Dan,

Chong Wei is trending on Twitter!!

looks like he's the winner on twitter

ROFL

bila la mok kalahkan Lin Dan gikkkk?

bencik tauk sik nangga muka Lin Dan ya!

rasa mok suttt jak palak nya ya!

urghh!

2010-11-18T01:21:00.002+08:00

everybody wants happiness, nobody wants pain.
but you can't have a rainbow without a little rain.

and I'll leave kuching in less than 12hrs.

:'(

I'll be missing this town

and my sayang

the worst part is, I am not going to be around for his birthday.

:'(

.double sadness.

btw

HAPPY EID ADHA EVERYONE!

2010-11-15T18:25:00.002+08:00

for almost every time I am angry,

I am actually angry at myself.

2010-11-15T16:51:00.002+08:00

I don't know what to type.

rse nak ngs tengok chapters yg harus dibaca

:'(

2010-11-11T19:58:00.003+08:00

this is my everyday sight

it's my desktop

and my everyday activity

can you see the countdown?

3 days left!!

I WANT TO GO HOME RIGHT NOW

a part of me wants to stay so that I could study

but

a part of me saying that I am not got to study anyway, so why don't you go home right away?

well, decision has been made.

ticket has been booked.

I am going home in 3 days and I want to make use of the 3 remaining days so that I won't regret any single decision I've made

but it seems like the enthusiasm to study has not arrive, yet

I NEED TO START TONIGHT

but I want to watch a hindi movie first.

how lah?

a movie

then study

can?

till then

do miss me

xoxo

2010-11-09T22:21:00.002+08:00

I have no self-confidence,

lack of self-esteem

I am not productive

I am not the brightest kid at school

I am not a straight A's student

and I am afraid of failing

I failed before

I've gone through it

but this time, I am not sure

if I can go though the same thing again.

semester 5 - the final exam

2010-11-07T22:10:00.002+08:00

will officially starts tomorrow.

so my course-mates, best of luck!

same goes to everyone yang tgh/akan exam!

Ya Allah, permudahkan segalanya!

awak!

2010-11-03T00:05:00.002+08:00

awak buat sy merana.

sy x leh tdo lena.

makan x kenyang*ok ini tipu*

tapi serious,

awak dah permainkan perasaan sy.

sy x ske.

klu awk ckp dr awl xske kan sng.

ni x, kejap awak ckp ok, kejap ckp x

awak tw x, sakit tw hati sy

sy nak awak bimbing sy

tu je yg sy mintak

please lah

sy dah xtahan nak tanggung perasaan ni

tatau sampi ble sy blh bertahan

sy harap sy blh bertahan sampai ke akhirnya

mula2 sy rasa sy blh tp skrg sbb awak, sy da xde semangat

maafkan sy

mungkin sy bukan yg terbaik utk awak

:'(

2010-11-02T01:05:00.002+08:00

hobi baru : tengok wedding videos

ahh.. just like a fairy tale.

huhu..

me want!

want to watch those vids?

here and here

tengok la semua video2 tu.

huhu...

~~rase nak g kawen sekarang~~

opss tidak boleeehhh. study pon x abis lg..

speaking of which, I really need to start my revision

but the viva is bothering me

can't wait for it to be over!

wish me luck yea?

final exam

2010-10-31T21:57:00.003+08:00

8 days to go!

oh before that,

04 nov 2010 VIVA (I hope that 15 mins wont be thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat long!)

and here goes the finals!

08 nov 2010 professional practice 3

10 nov 2010 english for workplace communication

14 nov 2010 HOME BABY! (14 days to go!)

23 nov 2010 construction management

24 nov 2010 construction technology 4

25 nov 2010 development economics

29 nov 2010 HOLIDAYYYYY :D (29 days to go!)

bes nak jadual exam ya?

I need my brain to function beyond what I think it could be

I need to show YOU what I can give to your company

eh skrip waktu interview terkeluar plak

ceett

anyway humans,

wish me the very best of luck

“Ya Allah! Aku memohon daripadaMu kefahaman para nabi, ingatan para rasul dan malaikat terhampir. Ya Allah! Jadikanlah lidahku basah dengan zikir kepadaMu, hatiku dipenuhi dengan takut kepadaMu. Sesungguhnya Engkau maha berkuasa di atas segala apa yang Engkau kehendaki.”

2010-10-31T13:53:00.003+08:00

finals in 8 days but all I have in my mind is VIVA PSM 1.

it's killing me and I am so nervous.

I don't feel like it's already study week and yeah I SHOULD STUDY during the study week

but I HAVE NOT START ANY REVISION yet

ahh.. PSM is just the pain in the ***

done with my super short course which is 'how to get yourself employed' just now

had a mock interview

and it was fun

I know the real interview won't be that fun

but yes, I learnt a lot

and

as time goes by (ayat x bleh blaaa)

I strongly feel that QS is not going to be my future

I just think that I don't fit in the industry

hmm

but I have no plans yet

maybe eventually, I'll think that I can fit in

just maybe

i feel depress now

again

till then,

do miss me

xoxo

GOP = Vacation

2010-10-30T00:05:00.000+08:00

comel kannn?

tiba2 rindukan shenzhen & guangzhou
*tipu*

actually I miss the feeling when you're on a vacation
it feels good

no pressure
no assignment
no classes
no exams
no thesis

I wanna go on a vacation again! with these people & others as well

let's plan a vacation friends!
*macam la ko ada duit*

haihh...
in my dreams la kalau mcam tu.

toodles

2010-10-29T23:32:00.000+08:00

tba2 rasa mok main2 ngan CSS

dolok sangat suka edit meng edit background

zaman friendster dolok lah

tapi nektok dah bebal dah kali hal2 kedak ya

the last day of the 5th semester

2010-10-29T12:50:00.002+08:00

no more classes

no more assignments

no more tests

no more presentation. no! there's a presentation for PSM next Thursday.

what's left is the final exam.

and holiday, perhaps?

these past few weeks is the most hectic weeks of all time

and the unstable mood is killing me

I hate being moody or depressed or whatever you call it

I usually could control myself from being moody and depressed but not at this time

I fee depressed everyday

I hate my life

I just feel like that I have the worst luck

to make the depression become more perfect,

my laptop has been affected by a virus

damn you virus!

and I think I need a good retail therapy

or at least I can go out from the uni area

now I know how sad it is when you have no one to turn to