i am jealous.

yesh, I am. Not only jealous but I am super duper jealous. Because? I think it's better for me to keep it to myself. Blog is just a public place for me to state what am I jealous for. It's enough for me to say that I am jealous.

Not only jealous, but I am angry. Angry to myself. Because i screwed everything. I hate me for doing that to myself. I feel like so stupid right now. :(

I HATE MYSELF!