Sunday, June 22, 2008
future is what matter
I talked to my parents about those things. I mean about the university thingy things.. Well, thet ask me to decide it myself. Because they said that they have been not approving my dreams for all this time. Since I am a little kid, they force me to do things. Like, when I was 3 years old, they sent me to kindy.(maybe it's normal) But I wasn't ready. Then when I was in Form 1, I got an offer from MRSM but I am not going. Instead, I am studying at Kolej Abdillah. Then when I was needed to choose between Matriculation or Diploma, they asked me to stayed at KML. Yes, maybe they are right. Now, I have to choose it by myself. They said, maybe my instinct is right all this time. But, the situation is different now. I just don't know what should I do. I can't think. Dah xde semangat nak hidup, seriously. Seriously, I can't choose. Thinking about the consequences makes me scared. I am scared if my choice is wrong. What if I made a mistake? A big mistake? How if my choice will ruin my life forever? How if this is not the right path? There's no turning back. I know. That's why I am so scared! I don't trust myself to make the choice. I just don't. But now they let me to think. If I don't go there, so where should I go? If I am going, am I able to be good in it? Can I survive. I don't want to give up in the middle of the road. I can't take the fact that I am failing.. I don't want it to be. So, I am scared to make any choice. I don't wanna ruin my life. I am so confuse... :(
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so are you really going to UniKL??? Me, i don't want to go to private. Went to masterskill & when I ask how much is the fees, i had heart attack. Aiyoo, sik mampu, eh. If the rayuan is not successful, I'm going to take diploma in nursing. sik boleh tunggu2 gik.
ReplyDeletebeen meaning to drop u a comment, but u know la kmk bz lmk tok. huhuhu. anyway, dont be sad dear sister. its not the end of the world. :) i know this sounds cliche, tapi mmg ada hikmah semua tok. Allah sikkan tentukan semua sukati NYA ajak. Even if ktk sikpat juak rayuan pastok, ipts is not so bad after all. nya depends ngn ipts ney yg ktk pileh. mun ktk ambik ipts bgs, bgs lah nya. anyway fees ipts average nya one sem is 6000+ lah. blh mntk loan bah. kmk on loan juak nektok. hehehe.
ReplyDeletestella: good luck in everything you do! :) n by da way, as u requested, ada cbox dah. hehe
ReplyDeleteola: thanks.. it does seems like it is the end of the world. huhu.. if i am going to private uni,i'm going to uniKL. maybe.. i kinda don't like it. melaka.. pande bes.. haha! k k.. dunno la.. i'll tell u if i have any plans.. by da way, good luck sis!