happy is never be mine

I don't know why I feel so depress because of this. Maybe I am jealous? Yes, I am. I am jealous of them. The people who get a lower pinter than mine got an offer. Why? Why? Tell me WHY?! Why this is happen to me? I am so sad thinking of this. I can;t get rid of this. It's difficult! It's being o unfair!

I can hardly stop crying when I am thinking about this. I hate it! I want to further my study. Yes, in public uni. Not in private unis. Don't ask me why. If I could avoiding the idea of studying in private uni, I will. But, unfortunately, that's the only choice I have for now. Argh! I hate that fact!

Ya Allah..
Please give me a chance to have a smile that comes from my heart...
Please give me some reason for me to continue breathing..
Please give me some more strength to fight..
Please give me another chance to be happy..
Please give me the courage to live my life..
Please help me to fulfill my dreams..
Please give me some love..

Ya Allah...
Hanya padamu aku memohon..
Hanya padamu aku berserah..