merry xmas

nowadays there's a lot of people posting videos about proposal. sweet! Somehow, I envy those girls. Lucky betol!

but I don't think I am ready yet. and it's scary when people start asking you when is your turn. it's a damn scary question. sometimes I'll tell them "10 years gik". Soalan ya nang soalan standard la once you've graduated & start kerja.

dah abs blaja ppl will ask bila mok kerja. dah kerja ppl will ask bila mok kawen. kakya mun dh kawen ppl will ask bila mok ada anak. mun dh ada anak sorang ppl will ask bila nya mok ada adik? it goes on and on and on and on.. cgek jak org x nanyak, bila kita mok knak tunggah oleh orang atas.

I always tell myself, just go with the flow. I have no target mcm umo sekian sekian mok kawen. umo sekian sekian mok ada anak. hm.. mun ada jodoh, kawen juak ujong ujong. sik ke siney bah. mun dh sikda jodoh, gne nk molah nak? dh d tentu oleh org atas kedak ya.

hm apa d kerepak ku tok?

anyway, but I want to have a wedding. take note, wedding not marriage ok. nak plh planning for the wedding pasuma p nang sik mungkin la ada wedding without marriage nak? sot mena.

I need to prepare myself to become someone's wife and to be a mother in the future, insyaAllah. marriage is a big step. the idea of bertunang pun scary. (aku tok ada masalah kah ngan commitment smpy rasa takut ndah?)

dah lah kin panjang kin banyak ku kerepak ku.

till then

xoxo

p.s. mudahan juak ada jodoh, panjang umur sempat la merasa jadi isteri org nak? :) amin

p.p.s. suka cmne dean propose to vivy and maria's engagement's ceremony adalah sangat sweet!

p.p.p.s and oh, merry xmas friends!