marriage

there's a lot of people around me who are already engaged/getting engaged/married/getting married

my friends already have plan when are they want to be married.

people around me start asking me when is my turn

and most of the time I answered, in 10 years time.

some will tell me that I'll be too old at time

and I'll just give them a smile, most of the time.

the thing is, I don't feel like I am ready, yet.

just the thought of it scares the hell out of me! 

don't get me wrong, I do want to be someone's wife one day, insyaAllah

who doesn't want to be happily married?

I know it's going to be fun and also tough at the same time

I've heard a lot of beautiful stories,

but there's a lot of ugly stories too.

someone once told me that marriage is just like gambling

and I agreed.

we will never know what will happen in the future

if your marriage is one of those marriage with beautiful stories, Alhamdulillah

but what if it's one of those marriage with ugly stories? Nauzubillahiminzalik

people change, that scares me the most

if Allah permits, one day I'll be married with the one I love

build our home together, raise our kids together and most importantly, grow old together :')

but if it doesn't go according to the plan, I hope that I'll be strong enough.

till then,

xoxo

p.s. jodoh di tangan tuhan ;)