when you watch those people who are living their dream,
you start to question yourself why can't you do the same.
for me, I am jealous, I envy those people
and usually I'm going to be angry
not that I am angry because they got to live their dream,
I am angry at myself
angry because I failed
angry because I am not living life that I dreamed of
angry because I was too afraid to live the life I dreamed of
I am disappointed
disappointed with what I have
and I know that I have to do something
but I can't figure out what should I do
some may say that I am lucky enough
don't get me wrong, I thank Allah for everything He gave me
it just that I have not satisfied yet
I believe that it is not wrong for me to wish for something more than what I already have
I believe that it is not wrong for me to want to work harder to get more
I believe that it is not wrong for me to find a way that could change my fate
or maybe this is just how an unstable mind think.
till then,
xoxo
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